I haven't been posting a lot because I "decided" that nobody really cared about what I had to say anyway, so why bother? Tonight, I had one of those "ah-ha"--hit me over the head--moments when I realized that it didn't really matter WHAT anyone else thought! What really mattered is that when I felt compelled to share my thoughts, it didn't matter one iota whether a single person read my posts or not! Sometimes you just gotta talk.......or write! So here goes...........
I realized tonight as I listened to some of my Bible Study friends that I had so much on my heart that I wanted to share, and it didn't really matter to me whether a single soul besides myself read it anyway! I want to continue to remind myself that God has been SO gracious to me.........to us! When I first returned to Bible Study in the fall of 2005 (after Jon's aneurysym), we did Beth Moore's study on John, the Beloved Disciple. In that first week, she addressed the meaning of the name, John, which is "God has been gracious." I remember how profoundly that affected me! GOD HAS BEEN GRACIOUS!!! Jonathon is alive, and he is thriving! How many aneurysm patients can claim that? Especially, how many BRAIN aneurysm patients--especially those with the degree of damage the statistics said Jonathon would have--can claim that? With the prognosis we were initially given for Jonathon, how can I possibly question God's infinite wisdom and plans for my son? I have to remind myself that this is THE God who gave His own Son to pay for my iniquities! One word............WOW!
Jonathon has returned to college; he is living independently on-campus. He is enrolled as a FULL-TIME student; what more could I ask for at this point in his life? Sure........it's a struggle at times, but isn't life a struggle? I have to constantly remind myself that God hasn't brought Jonathon to this point in his life to now abandon him.............He wants Jonathon to enjoy a future and to prosper! Does Jonathon's future look the same as his brother's and his sister's does? NOT REALLY.............but does Jonathon HAVE a future? ABSOLUTELY!!! And who am I to question what his future really holds? Jonathon indeed has a future, and THAT is what I need to continue to remind myself! God promised each of us hope AND a future!
Praise HIM!
"Take the shackles off my feet so I can dance!
I just want to praise him; I just want to praise him!"
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I'm reading, Mary! I love "hearing" what you have to say. And, like you said, it doesn't matter who is reading, of course. Sometimes I feel the same way about my blog. But, hey, you never know who might stumble across it and be blessed. Write on, Mary. :)
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